Six, I'm very sorry for asking about such a heavy subject here, but I really do need some advice, even if something very little, and was too scared of asking directly to you or anyone because I'm a coward. :c What do you do when the suicide thoughts start to look plausible/convincing? Like, if you've ever caught yourself thinking "wow, maybe I really should do that..." How do you deal with them/run away from them? :<
The last time I had thoughts like that, I found one of the easiest ways to make them pass is to take a nap. By the time you wake up your mind is a little more clear.
But we don’t always have the option, right? Sometimes we’re at school, or maybe work. The first thing I think about is family and friends. They would cry so much if I did something like that. On top of that, it will cause them to suffer.
'What could I have done?'
'Did I completely miss the signs?'
'This is all my fault…'
I think about what would go through their heads. How would they react to my death? Put yourself in their shoes. How would you feel if someone close to you committed suicide?
In a way, suicide is selfish. Even if you feel like the world will be better without you, it will not. Many will spend years suffering. Every time your birthday passes, your loved ones will be reminded of your early departure of this world.
And even if I don’t know who you are, I will worry. I will hope every day that you are okay, even as you remain nameless. If you were to give in to those thoughts, I’d feel like I didn’t do enough to help you.
The thoughts will come, but you can get through it! Just remember that if you give in, the ripple effects will be huge, and really the world is just a better place by having you in it. People like us who understand this emotion can help others. When they experience it we can be there to help them through the fog.
Please don’t hesitate to message me again. You’ll get through this!